This is the fifth time I have filed foreclosure against her in the 38 months she has technically owned the house. I was incredibly lucky to find a lawyer who has given me the tools to do nearly everything myself. This has taken a lot of courage, time, effort, strength and guts. I don't always feel like I have all of those things in the quantities needed. I'd like to share with you my strategy for these remaining 48 hours before the auction.
I am wearing 5 rings. I never wear rings (usually don't wear any jewelry). I pulled them out as more than good luck charms. They represent certain people or events that remind me of love and strength and trust. The one on my right pinky is the commitment ring Dan and I got together I didn't care about getting married, but something personal was important to me. Even though Dan and I are not together any more, we still communicate and I have baby sat his dog. He still trusts me. And I trust him. We are good people and this is a reminder that good people can be good even when things don't work out together. Right hand ring finger is a James Avery dove ring. My father saved secretly to buy it for my mother. He had it made in white gold and surprised her their first Christmas. Mom gave it to me some years back. I think it's pretty special and symbolizes love and commitment. Middle finger right hand is a gold gold ring with six round opals set in a circle around a wee diamond. A ring passed from great grand mother to grand to my mom to me. Opal is my birthstone. I don't wear yellow gold, but this is old fashioned and cool and represents the strength that women have. Left hand first finger is a spoon ring that I found the very first day in the house that Sydney and I bought. It was wedged between the carpet and the wall. This one represents journeys and joy in exploring new things. Finally middle finger left hand is a teardrop shape emerald with two small diamonds beside it set in silver. This was in the box of junk jewelry my grandmother recently sent me. I love emeralds for the obvious green. This one represents the saying "one man's junk is another man's treasure." THAT is the motto of this house!!!!!
I'm also wearing a necklace... The chain held a locket with my grandfather's photo in it, but fearing I could lose the locket, I am just wearing the chain and added a charm my mom gave me that is a Celtic knot with the word strength on the back. These can represent the strength and unconditional love that exist in family.
Earrings.... I'm wearing the studs that Dan gave me with emerald set in silver... And a set of earrings I made with the OM symbol. Centering, peace, calm, now, acceptance....
I also have a series of trinkets in my purse that will go in my pocket. 2 stones given to me by my best friend that say "success" and "celebrate", a tiny cat statue that my godfather gave me, a souvenir heart that another friend gave me representing the clients that love me, and the hand luck symbol thingy on a key chain that a musician friend gave me representing the musician friends who love me.
If I have any doubts, I can note ANY of these items to remember that all of these people love and support me in the here and now. I am lucky and loved and strong.