Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Texas Early Music Project

What a great weekend of beautiful music!!  There will be plenty of video clips from the concert.  For now, I have video of my two solos.  The fabulous Ariana Vincent, massage therapist and teacher, sent me copies of the video she recorded from both nights.  There were several people who attended both evenings - the concert was that good!  When I see others post other clips, I will share those as well.


Friday, January 18, 2013

Concert

Texas Early Music Project concert next week in Austin!  Celtic style!!  I'll be singing a couple of my favorite songs in Irish.  There will be fabulous lovely music played by the best early and Celtic musicians in the area.  Saturday the 26th & Sunday the 27th of January.  http://www.early-music.org/schedule.html

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Relationships

I do not usually talk a whole lot about my relationships.  It has been just over one year now that I found out the person I loved and trusted was not worthy of the trust I gave him.  This paved the road for the most challenging year of my life.  Can I love him or trust him as a friend ever again?  All year, I tried very hard to find this answer.  I actively worked toward forgiving, trusting, and loving.  I now realize that I did nothing wrong.  In stating what I needed and hearing "ok" as a response, it was good for me to trust that my need was heard and accepted.  I did nothing that made it ok for him to go against that agreement.  I did nothing that made it ok for him to abuse my trust.  I did nothing that made it impossible for him to be honest.

I don't need you to hate him for me.  If you feel a small amount of anger while reading this, I would understand that.  I can't say for sure that I will never find a way to be a friend to him again.  I just know that after a full year of trying to accept the situation and forgive and love, it is not good for me to push all of my needs aside for someone who cannot trust or be trusted.  This is not my burden to carry any longer.  I need to re-establish my ability to trust those who are worthy of trust rather than trying to trust someone who has so obviously not deserved it.

I thought I had been dealing with this.  My trying to reconcile the love and trust with him and protecting him from what our friends might think is not actually dealing with things.  I need to focus on my rebuilding of me not him or us.  I need to admit that I have suffered a great loss of many types and that I need to heal from this.  I have not wanted to admit this because I am a strong independent woman who doesn't need him anyway.  While those things may be true, I trusted him to be more and to be honest.  It is a huge loss to be betrayed no matter how you add it up.  I am sorry that he has some element of loss in this situation, but I can no longer concern myself with his loss.  I am ready to accept the process and move on with my life.

Thanks for listening.
Abby

Sunday, January 06, 2013

Still no address

It's January 6.  There is no way for me to have an address by January 15.  Plans and ideas are progressing, but now, the idea that could happen by Christmas might happen by mid-February.  Or , maybe nothing will happen.  If the possibility that is before us right now does not happen, then the whole project is on hold until October.  As I said before, I always have plans and back-up plans, so it's really no big deal, I just wish I could plan and get an address if I'm going to be here!  Everything will work out fabulously in the end.  I just have to hang in there!